I subscribe wholeheartedly to the belief that we are exactly where we are meant to be at every moment in time. I think that the Universe hands us people, places, and events as they are meant to unfold throughout our lives and that these offerings are there to either teach us the lessons we so dearly require as we walk through our lives, or placed in our path so that we may assist others with the knowledge we ourselves have already obtained through our experiences.
I also believe that from time to time people who come into our lives are not meant to stay for long...however their presence in our world (however brief it may be) has a purpose, be it to connect us to others we are meant to spend more time with, or offer us a lesson we are intended to have,...either way all leave footprints on our lives, some on our hearts.
This past year has been one of those laden with footprints, inclusive of a time out from many whose paths are now returning to join up with mine.
We always know intuitively when we are in a good place...and when we are not. I found this past year rich with experiences...ones that I needed to learn, and feel and walk through. It has been a time of reflection, time away from a community, away from some loved ones and away from myself and who I really truly am. There was a change in careers ( it was my choice)....one that took me away from people and the community I was involved with and put me in a quiet place tucked away from everyone, including myself.At the time, I needed the change...the solitude, and the lesson. Had I not made this change, I believe that I would not be where I am now.
There was a man, (R) I fell very deeply in love with him...along with his 3 daughters, We spent the greater portion of 9 months together...and those girls felt like my own. There was something about him, he had a softness about him beneath the bravado and ruggedly handsome exterior, he had overcome much adversity in his life and seems very committed to helping others do the same. I had not felt like this since I first fell in love with my girls father soo many years ago.
It is now four months later and life is without R. I still miss those girls and the times we were all together laughing over the silliest things....and the feeling of "family" we shared, even if for a short time. I miss R terribly every day.......it is an incredible void without his voice, and those 3 precious girls.
I have just started a new job, entrenched in a community that I love so dearly. The owners are a long time family in our community, and some of the truest most genuinely good people I have ever had the pleasure to meet...and call my friends. The girl I am replacing is moving away, off to a new adventure, she is a jewell. I had the pleasure of working with her just a few short years ago and once again our paths are crossing. I think this time we will stay more in touch, I love her dearly, she too is just genuinely lovely, I wish her a lifetime of happiness, she is so deserving! This past week has been full of seeing old friends and members of a community I have dearly missed. The coming weeks and months will see more of this...aaaahhh love it!!!
Its an amazing feeling to wake up each day in a place of happy, excited about the day, and grateful to be here! It has been a week of coming home.
There is no man in my life at this moment...I think it may take some time...which is okay, there is much to focus on, and to accomplish. There will be time down the road....when it feels right and my heart has healed.
Days off now are filled with horses, time with close friends, my girls, gratitude and sheer bliss.
To say I have found a good place would be an understatement...
xo
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